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Love? AGAIN?! January 8, 2007

Filed under: Love,Myself — renzi @ 2:44 pm

Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…

You give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like “maybe we should just be friends” or “how very perceptive” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Hahaha…I got this off this website…How true is that! =) Whatever it is right now….I dunno lah, well, the next person whom I get together with ah, other than my parents, he (hopefully not she) would have to be in the good books of a couple of the people I list below because well…it matters to me at least. =)

1) Karen – My bestie in the world
2) Rongyang – My Pseudo Bf for now…hur hur
3) Alvin – My kor kor…sole-surviving korrrr
4) Jon Teo – My ah-pa…my other bestie
5) Jon Thyagarajan – My husband-to-be if I don’t get married by 30…!!!
6) Jeff – My other sole-surviving kors from CHEEENAA
7) Jingxi
8) Danielle
9) Keith Loy
10) Charms
11) Eemin

Sooooo..yeah…dunno why I’m typing this lah. I’m probably this bored…

Anywayyy…. Jon Teo’s going back to Oz today. I’m abit upset but, well what to do? =(

After gym, I’ll make my way down to the Airport to see him for the last time.


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