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You will be dearly missed, Gabs (2 Sam 1:19-27) May 28, 2007

Filed under: Friends,Monash — renzi @ 2:41 pm

Gabs and I(19) The glory, O Israel, is dead on your high places! How have the great ones been made low! (20) Give no news of it in Gath, let it not be said in the streets of Ashkelon; or the daughters of the Philistines will be glad, the daughters of men without circumcision will be uplifted in joy. (21) O mountains of Gilboa, let there be no dew or rain on you, you fields of death: for there the arms of the strong have been shamed, the arms of Saul, as if he had not been marked with the holy oil. (22) From the blood of the dead, from the fat of the strong, the bow of Gabriel was not turned back, the sword of Gabriel did not come back unused. (23) Gabriel was loved and pleasing; in his life and in his death he was not parted; he went more quickly than eagles, he was stronger than lions. (24) O daughters of Israel, have sorrow for Gabriel, by whom you were delicately clothed in robes of red, with ornaments of gold on your dresses. (25) How have the great ones been made low in the fight! Gabriel is dead on your high places.

(26) I am full of grief for you, my brother Gabriel: very dear have you been to me: your love for me was a wonder, greater than the love of women. (27) How have the great ones been made low, and the arms of war broken!


Will you still love me tomorrow? May 25, 2007

Filed under: Friends,Lyrics,Monash,Renzi-Ramblings — renzi @ 9:55 am

I was out again last night, speaking most of my time after work at the hospital. He’s still in almost a vegetative state, hardly moving because of the probable pain (I only can imagine). According to his mum, he was responding occasionally in the afternoon by nodding slightly and making small audible sounds. Even though he’s physically weak, he’s still a strong tiger on the inside I reckon. I mean, even the doctors warned the family 2 days ago that he was given a few hours to a few days, and he’s still here, amazingly.

Was talking to one of his friends (Eu Lee) during dinner and well, I found out more about Gabs. It’s amazing what you don’t know about your friends sometimes 🙂 Well… I’m still praying for him, at least to curb his pain and be as comfortable as possible. Please continue lifting him up in prayer.

Hmm…was thinking about Monday, when something happened in the hospital that stunned me,and probably some of his friends. For some reason, this song came to mind…

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment’s pleasure?
Can I believe the magic in your sighs?
Will you still love me tomarrow?

Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I’m the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning sun?

I’d like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now, and I won’t ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?


. May 24, 2007

Filed under: Friends,Monash,Prayer needs — renzi @ 9:52 am

Yesterday was my 2nd time meeting him. how can anyone so skinny lose even more weight? the cancer’s spreading again and it’s infecting some other parts of his body. when the doc commented that all we could do, other than the option of sedating him, and the only other thing to do was to make him feel less pain. seeing him half conscious most of my 6 hours there with him made me feel dejected. I can’t imagine how the family members could have coped till now.

I guess all we can do is to pray for him still.


Day 1 May 22, 2007

Filed under: Friends,Monash — renzi @ 2:06 pm

I took a cab to the Singapore General Hospital (down at Outram). I finally got hold of Gabs, well… through Betsy, his girlfriend. She gave me the details and I knew I wanted to go see him.

Prior to that, I got an sms from my cousin saying that Gabs’ condition is pretty critical. This was six in the morning. After I received that message, I couldn’t sleep. All I could do was pray for him.

When I stepped into the hospital and went to the correct level, I searched for the wards. Damn those wards, they’re so confusing! Finally when I reached Gabs’ ward, I walked in, but I couldn’t locate Gabs, nor Betsy. So I walked out and checked the ward tag. I paced up and down the corridoor, and sneaked a few peaks into other wards, hoping to see Gabs, but to no avail. Finally I relented and went to ask the nurse, “Is gabriel staying in one of the wards?”

The nurse smiled and returned sweet sounding reply, a vast contrast to well the deathly sounds of hospitals, “he’s at bed 5” and ushered me to the ward.

There he was……….


I couldn’t even recognise Gabs. I even had to get a reconfirmation that it was Gabs because I turned to his friends, who gave me the “yes, that’s Gabs” look. I walked gingerly towards Gabs and he stretched out his beyond-skinny left arm to greet me. I grabbed his hand and greeted him, and at that split second I almost cried.

He looked so weak, so pale. His cheeks were all sunkened in and I could see every bone sticking out of his body. He looked almost in his mid-forties, a far cry from what he’s supposed to be. He was so skinnier than any anorexic friend of mine. When he spoke to me, it was hardly audible because he was pretty weak but after having a short conversation with him, I moved away to let someone else sit and talk to him.

I was then looking at his photos, a compilation that his girlfriend made and there and then, I started crying. I didn’t know what came over me, but I guess I was overwhelmed by shock mainly, that my good friend is a third of his size and that he’s hardly recognisable. In a short span of 5 months, he lost that much weight.

The only thing that he’s still steadfast is that he’s smiling and still clinging on to God. And for that I’m more moved by it.

Please continue to pray for my friend. He’s hallucinating from time to time and he’s very very weak. Pray for his family and gf as well, that they’re able to cope well as the demands to take care of him increases.



Please pray for my friend. May 21, 2007

Filed under: Monash — renzi @ 9:33 am

I know I’ve blogged about this before but guess Gabs’ condition is deteriorating. Today I received an SMS from my cousin (in Melbourne) asking me about Gabs and telling me that he’s on the brink of well, meeting the Lord… Well, here’s a message to you guys out there reading this (I sms-ed a couple of my peeps as well):

Hey guys pls take a few min to help pray for my ex cell group leader, Gabriel. He’s suffering from a rare small intesting cancer and apparantly he’s ready to be with the Lord. I’m really not sure wat or how to pray for him but do keep him in prayer. Please help me pass the msg around too. Thanks. Renee

Hmmm and David Tow messaged back and said “Will do pray for iner peace and readiness to meet his maker. Pray for God’s grace and mercy to take him home so that the suffering will end. pray for comfort for family members and loved ones”.

So yeah…please help me pray for my friend. I did implore you guys to pray for him last time. Please do continue to keep him and his family in prayer.



Tired Shoutout! May 7, 2007

Filed under: Lyrics,Monash — renzi @ 5:51 pm

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you while we were getting high?
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye

Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova

Cos people believe that they’re
Gonna get away for the summer
But you and I, we live and die
The world’s still spinning round
We don’t know why
Why, why, why, why

Hmmm one of my all time favourites. 🙂

Anyway taking time from work to quickly say hi to a couple of my loves in oz!

1) Danny… my stupid kor still reads my blog. AWWWwwww….thanks for the call and thanks for remembering me when you heard news about the grad photos! *hug*


3) Kee kee – thanks for letting me in on…heheh Renald’s birthday! Pity I couldn’t call in time. Sniffles…

4) Renald – Happy birthday to you too! 🙂 Hope u’re doing fine in oz!!!

Okkkkaaaaaaaaaaaay back to work!


Surprising SMS March 23, 2007

Filed under: ACJC,assMass,I'm a slave for...........Work,Monash,Myself — renzi @ 3:57 pm

I was talking to this friend on MSN just 10 min ago and I expressed that I was unhappy about certain things. Minutes later (because I was busy and didn’t reply him) he texted me from OZ and said

Take care darling 🙂 Cheer up. You look much better when you smile. You bring joy to others with your cheerful personality.

Awwww….Thanks so much Rongyao for the SMS. It did indeed make me feel better.